Saturday, January 29, 2022

6 Days Postpartum

I gave birth to baby M at 12:43am, just past midnight on the 24th Jan. The induction was slow and hard, as my GERD acted up and I got a headache. Then right after delivering the placenta, I suffered a hemorrhage. At one point there were something like 12+ medical staff all running around the room doing things, and I lay there just resigned and depleted. Didn't get a chance to hold M until much later. The next day was hard too, as I had a bakri balloon and a catheter in me, and I was pretty miserable. I couldn't sit up without getting a headache after long, and I felt nauseous. 

Anyway, I was happy to be discharged in the late afternoon of 25th Jan after several blood tests came back OK. Except right before we were about to leave, we found out the hot water heater died and it was minus 10 degrees celcius that day. 

Today is now the 6th day of M's life. I am trying to take things day by day and not think too much. Been in contact with my psych, and at least I'm a lot more aware of my emotions and physical feelings now, vs my first birth with E. I'm a mess of hormones and disrupted sleep. Thank God for Jon and my in-laws who are here to help, especially with the first 2 weeks which are known to always be hellish. E provides some comfort too, though obviously she adds to everyone's exhaustion as well. 

Everyone else has gone out today, leaving just M and me at home. It feels kind of nice, because I don't feel great today and am relishing the momentary peace (though an hour later I might start to feel lonely).

Saturday, January 22, 2022

39 Weeks 1 Day

I must have gotten a grand total of 2h combined sleep last night. It's currently just past 7am, and I'll probably try to go sleep again in a bit. Last night I couldn't sleep from combined anxiety, hormones, E having nightmares, and general pregnancy pains/discomfort. Luckily so far nights like this one have been relatively few and far between this time. 

I have an elective induction scheduled for today, but I'm worried it'll be postponed again (was meant to be yesterday evening). I'm both anxious and excited for baby M to come - and I'd really like to be able to have some deep rest again.

Wednesday, January 12, 2022

Nice Weather in Jan

For the past 2 days my in laws have been both dropping off and picking E up at school, because I've been too tired and having weird upper abdominal cramps. Currently 37 weeks and 5 days pregnant today. After lunch I went for a short walk with E, and mistakenly let her wear her rain boots, which of course kept falling off her feet. We ended up not making it very far (down to Lynne's yard), when I got tired from all the standing around waiting for E to fix her boots. Still, it was a nice day to be out even for a little bit - 12 degrees Celsius, sunny and no wind. I only wish I had more energy to bring E to the park or go for a longer walk.

Friday, January 07, 2022

37 Weeks

I am currently 37 weeks pregnant, and have never been this pregnant in my life before (E was born at 36 weeks and 5 days). Several things in my body hurt and are uncomfortable, but nothing beyond the unexpected. This week has been absurdly cold in STL, but with only the tiniest sprinkling of snow, and no additional snowfall in sight.