Monday, June 21, 2021

2nd Birthday

Today was the first day in more than a week that I've been able to open the windows, and not be greeted with a blast of heat. This heatwave finally peaked on Friday, at a sweltering 37 Degrees Celsius+, with a heat advisory for the area. It was a very miserable week, and E and I stayed indoors most of the week as a result. I'm pretty sure the heat made me feel a lot sicker, in addition to the existing morning sickness that I have at 8 weeks pregnant.

Today is also E's 2nd birthday. Due to aforementioned morning sickness (or afternoon/evening sickness as is more apt in my case), we had to cancel the small birthday party we planned with her friends S and L. We picked up the cake for her birthday on Saturday, and already dug into it and sang E her birthday song (she didn't care for the cake as much as she did for the song, which is a pity because it's a great cake). Then yesterday was Father's Day and I rustled up enough energy to cook a simple steak dinner, though it took a lot out of me. Which brings us to today, the actual day itself, and I didn't have anything special planned at all except for a playdate with S at their place. Simple enough, and something she'd enjoy.

When I picked E up this morning to get ready for the playdate however, I noticed she was boiling hot. I changed her and gave her breakfast, and noticed she was acting weird. I think I was in denial about the fact that she was obviously sick, because I really didn't know what to do. Anyway I took her temperature when she was munching quietly on some strawberries (already unusual, she never does anything quietly), and sure enough she was running a fever. So I gave her some tylenol, and then we cuddled for about 45 mins watching Sesame Street before I put her down for a nap again. I didn't notice any other symptoms except a fever.

After putting her down for a nap, I finally went to the basement and brought up some of the gifts we had bought for her birthday to wrap. I didn't do a very good job, but at least I've got 3 parcels of wrapped gifts now for her to tear through later, when she hopefully feels better. 

I feel a bit like a crap Mum, even though it's not like E knows what is going on, except for the fact that she feels ill. The morning sickness has really reduced my already low energy levels, and made me feel very weak and discouraged. I haven't been able to cook much due to exhaustion and nausea, or be entirely present for E lately as a result. Then today, of all days, she wakes up sick. Though of course I know all of these things are out of my control, and that Jon and I are doing the best we can with our already stretched thin resources, it still kind of stinks just thinking about things. Oh well.

Tuesday, June 08, 2021

Library

About a week and a half ago, Jon and I brought E to the library. It was our first time going, since the COVID pandemic started. Since COVID, I've been borrowing e-books from the library, and while it is convenient, it's definitely not the same as being able to browse and look at all sorts of different titles in person. E loved the library, and went wild running through the stacks and seeing all the books. She somehow knew that this was different from a book store, that she could grab any book she wanted and that we wouldn't really stop her (unless it was age inappropriate).

Anyway I borrowed 3 books:

1) Crooked Heart by Lissa Evans

2) The Awkward Squad by Sophie Henaff

3) The Book of Hidden Things by Francesco Dimitri

I finished Crooked Heart yesterday night, and it was quite a pleasant and enjoyable read. It definitely reminded me of Goodnight Mr Tom, which I had to read when I was in Secondary 1. It's weird looking back, how we were introduced to such aspects of British history randomly in school without given much extra background (if I recall accurately), specifically in this instance the children evacuees from London being sent to the countryside. Anyway, my enjoyment of the book was bolstered by recalling the places mentioned in the book, felt like I was almost back in London again. 

Tomorrow we leave for a short 3 day 2 night stay at the Lake of the Ozarks. It's our first real vacation as a family. While exciting and long-longed for, I'm apprehensive as to how E will behave and sleep (we'll be all sharing a room, of course), and how I will feel given that I am now riding the wave(s) of morning sickness (not really morning, but more like all-day-but-worse-at-night sickness). I'll be bringing The Book of Hidden Things along to read.