2005 is finally ending! Thank goodness.

This year started out on a promising note, albeit a sad one (Asian Tsunami) but promising nonetheless yet it soon degraded into one of the most terrible years of my life. From looking at worst sides of human nature (NKF, Pakistan's Quake, etc.) to my problems snowballing till near explosion; in short I won't be looking back at 2005 with any fond memories at all. Still, from whatever has happened I'm still here either by the grace of God or for his amusement. C'est la vie.

Goodbye 2005, may I never have such a bad year again!

And maybe the world will come to and end in 2006... (the bible code)

Happy New Year!

Melodie, your Super IQ score is 120

The way you think about things makes you a Concrete Thinker. This means your intelligence is grounded in a clear understanding of what is happening around you. In situations where others are confused, things are crystal clear to you. In addition, you have the unusual combination of strong verbal and numerical skills. You are able to solve equations and then use your verbal skills to explain those solutions to others.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Concrete Thinker? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Concrete Thinker. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

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HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Go to for the quiz (:

Yay, today I saw Wallace and Gromit: The Curse of the Were-Rabbit with my dad (: It was very nice! The Madagascar Penguins short was pretty funny too!

And I did a quiz on Steph's blog

I took the "What's So Funny?" quiz on gURL.com
		My sense of humor is... Satirical Do you think comedy can serve a higher purpose? Or maybe you just like poking fun at people. Either way, you seem to enjoy satirical humor. Satire is the use of irony and wit to expose the unethical or just plain ridiculous aspects of society. Read more... What is your sense of humor?

Now for math homework/some writing!

edit: I just remembered that I forgot to post the picture I took of a doll's dress I made last night (: (instead of going to sleep)


Rather disturbingly, the doll now looks like an altar boy in his new green dress with white ribbon trimming. To be fair I didn't make the dress for HIM but another doll which wouldn't fit because her head was too huge >.<

Detail 1

Detail 2

5 days till school starts :(

Hahahaha, that WAS me! Aiyo. Bawang! Math is still bad.

Onion onion onion :D Math is bad!

Sigh, blogger just made me lose my game -.-

Anyway, I'm feeling better now and I've started re-doing at my math homework. I can't believe how much there is! At least if I knew that there was a new list I wouldn't have done all the work on the OLD list. Plus I still haven't handed up my lit, I hope the teacher doesn't think i'm dropping it or something and I can't find the two bio essay topics we were supposed to write :(

Well chinese work is still, non-existant. I think we were supposed to write a zhou zi or something so I'll do that because it's one of the few bits I remember and one that I don't mind that much doing.

Happy lots-of-people-dying-last-year-day Boxing Day.

An easy excuse to explain for what happened today and last night would be: “I don’t know.” But I do know, not then I suppose, but I do now. The scary thing is that this wasn’t the first time it has happened – it was the 3rd time and I don’t know when it’ll ever stop. Things that have been niggling away at me, making me sad, are just blown right out of proportion in my mind and I can’t always differentiate what’s rational and irrational till hours or even days later. Even now the little petty things that happen just serve to make me feel more and more depressed. I know I’m going very emo here but I felt I need to explain, if only very partially what happened last night. And it wasn’t because of ‘him’.

Merry Christmas, I think.

and a part of me wanted to finish the sentance, to scream out what had been eating away at me but strangely enough just this once, I didn't dare.

Yay, today was a very fun day (and a very tiring one too). It was fun ice skating again after not skating for 2 years thought it took me a long time to gain confidence enough to skate at anything other than an abysmally slow rate.

I fell down 4 times in total! 3 of the times were very dumb :/ and they happened near the end of the skating session. Once I was about to collide into someone and froze while I was still gliding on the ice and went right for the sides of the rink. I hit the wall and managed to grab on but for some reason when Jeanette and Ian came over to check on me I fell down while holding onto the wall >.<

Later I was skating with Martha when I lost my balance and went careening right for the sides - except there was this big group of guys hanging on to that section of the wall. I tried to change direction and went off course a little bit and ended up slamming into the wall and I held on trying to stand up straight... and then I fell down again while holding onto the wall. The guys were pretty shocked and I think I grabbed one of them while trying to slow down or something >.<>

The last fall was when some kid cut in front of me at the end of the rink with those orange cones (a section was set apart for ice skating classes) and I had to swerve suddenly and fell forwand landing on my knees. I was laughing too as Joel helped me up.

It was very fun overall and I got some exercise after leading a sedentary lifestyle for dunno how long. Going out again tomorrow to watch KING KONG (:

I just saw Angeline's lj entry and reading it made me realise how lucky I was to have my friends (:

Ange: I still remember you screaming and grabbing onto me when a big ass atlas moth flew into 1t, those were the days eh?
Ianthe: You ate my camera!
Stephanie: Remember how we couldn't stop groaning when Ianthe couldn't get 'Fe' and her 'one meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeellion dollars!'
Victor: Thanks for always encouraging me when I was down (:
IAN: Actually I have no idea what to say to you >.<>
Suat: Thanks for listening to all my nonsense and those super cheem chem notes
Zhi Wai: Hang in there and don't go beserk again! Think DANIEL
Marina (though she won't read this): Ah I can't imagine you being gone after 2 years of pure unadultered nonsense. Half hist won't be the same anymore.

And if you're not here, I guess it means I don't really know what else to say but thanks for being my friend (:

Oh and before I forget, here's a totally unabashed plug for the new quiz i did with Ianthe today (we were both bored) check out the 'other results' tab for more hilarity when you're done (:

Your wish is my command Madame Stephanie (:

YOU GET ONE WISH OF ANYTHING, WHAT WOULD YOU ASK FOR?
For all corruption in the world to go away. There's corruption of all kinds everywhere in the world, from corruption of values in teenagers to the corruption of greedy politcians who can be bought by bloody capitalistic MNCs who in turn made the rich-poor gap bigger by exploting poor children and women everywhere.

WISH FOR 6 MORE WISHES
1. Equal rights for women all over, in the middle east it's still acceptable to stone women to death for adultry and female circumcision is still widespread.
2. For explotation of young female children to stop, how can one condone a brothel filled with 12 year old (or even younger) girls. They often get infected with STDs from their 'clients' and are left to die all alone and unloved.
3. To be able to do well for my O levels and beyond and get into a good course in a reputable university (:
4. To marry Christian Coulson! (I'm surprised Stephanie didn't wish to marry Ian Rosenberger)
5. To be able to support a nice large family (4 kids up) with my husband next time and to raise them well
6. To have all my problems just vanish into thin air, no more depression, no more worrying (:

WHAT ANIMAL WOULD YOU BE?
Hahahaha, I bet you guys all think it's to be a LAO HU or a monkey but it's not :p It's to be a nice sleek panther. They're so dark mysterious and sinister and they seem to be without conscience (actually all animals are right?).

SOMETHING YOU WANT TO DO IN YOUR LIFE
I know this seems really moronic and silly, but I always thought it'd be nice to rescue someone from the brink of death (or some life threathening situation) though I have almost done that once but it doesn't count because even if that girl fell she wouldn't have died. Just got paralysed or broken something (no this isn't Zhi Wai I'm referring to).

ONE SONG YOU COULD LISTEN TO OVER AND OVER AGAIN
Hmmm, it'd have to be Lene Marlin's Unforgivable Sinner. I love that song becuase it sounds so sad yet so beautiful in it's own special way.

COKE OR PEPSI?
Uh. They taste the same for me? Though I wouldn't mind get a nice WoW poster of the Human Sorceress (Coke), I already have the bottle with that picture (:

SOMETHING YOU CURRENTLY DESIRE
To be doing something productive because I've been a real sloth since I've came back from guide camp, but they anti-histamine I'm on now is really hampering my brain speed, as of now I have a feeling I left behind a whole slew of typos all over this entry >.<

ONE GOOD DEED YOU'VE DONE LATELY
Give a heck load of money to the people I've seen either busking or peddling on the street? I really can't remember much but I have a feeling it's not just because I'm drowsy.

A FUNNY MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE
I can't remember this either :( I think it was when I was with Stephanie and Ianthe and we were talking about FARTING in the MGS canteen on Wednesday. That was very fun (:

Five people I pick: I don't really like dragging anyone down but I guess it'll be Victor, Ian and Suat for the pure reason that all 3 don't update very regularly (: and uh, George Bush and Tony Blair for the last 2.

Honestly, world vision is so annyoing. I was looking at their order form, noticed an error and e-mailed them about it. Now it's slightly over ONE week to christmas and they still haven't corrected the mistake. I had organisations, they're like mini-governments but equally ineffective and moronic, just on a smaller scale.

Back from Guide Camp! The whole guides contingent got PWNED by a S peg. Chessa got PWNED by a car :(

Warning: very long post ahead.

Day 1
I reached school around 7:45AM and found a very angry Grace (over the changing of schedules), after dumping my stuff in the Concourse, I left with her and Yihui to drag stuff out of the Guide Den (which STILL smelled of kerosene despite all the airing out we did during the GB campfire) and found lots of nice new stuff :D Mrs Lim used some MOE grant to buy some nice new gadget poles, wires, pegs, mallets and changkoes, basically the lot. We rejoined the guides after taking out all the nice new gadget poles and everyone moved their stuff to the bamboo courtyard.

After placing our stuff down, everyone went to help carry the things from outside the den to the small field outside the Home Ec. rooms, we got to boss around the other guides for a change (: (the non-committee guides) and after the seniors (ie: the ones that left years ago, the youngest of the lot was Caroline, a girl who was Sec 4 when I was Sec 1) demonstrated how to erect a tent, everyone went to erect the other 3 tents. Just my luck that the tent i was assigned to had to be one surrounded on one side with long grass :( I think it was around there that I got bitten by some strange bug. My right ankle started to swell up into a ball and it was itchy like hell >.< It's still a little swollen now, but not itchy as before.

The girls in my group, Rosa Parks (I’m still happy with all the names I gave the groups), were Stephanie, Vicky, Ee Leng, Elishea, Serena and Elizabeth.

After that we did some gadget making, I completely forgot how to do square lashing and Marina had to teach a bunch of us how to tie the lashing again, we mostly slacked a lot and used up almost all of my ‘macho twine’ (my dad’s words, not mine: it was the dark green army sort).

We had some sort of food for lunch, can’t remember what it was exactly, all I remembered was Stephanie kicking up a huge fuss over her food which was repeated again for every meal in the next 3 days, breakfast excluded. My goodness, that girl sure is picky and complains a lot when it comes to her food >.< I ended up finishing my food the last of all the guides.

After lunch we had pioneering training again, just like the last guides camp and to add to the sense of déjà vu, the SAME instructors (the seniors) taught the SAME things. I finished my sawing and axing quite fast and all that work with the changkoe for the Outdoor Cooking Competition paid off when I finished my turfing fast, but I was tired out all the same.

Tired as I was, we all had to attend the COH which was quite um, quiet. Nevertheless I found out to my horror that there was nothing planned for the Craft session the next day (!!!). After the session I had a short discussion with the other planning girls and ended up calling my Grandma to bring coloured paper from home for tomorrow’s mosaic activity.

During COH the other guides also got to bathe and I was all stinky and sticky while the other guides looked so happy and GLOWED in their nice freshly soaped skin (oh dear, I sound like some pervert) and I was left to be miserable and sticky >.< at I least I got to bathe right after dinner, unlike the 2nd night.

Then we had orienteering. The same thing as last year with the SAME time slot. Thank goodness there were 3 other sec 3 guides in my patrol who also took Geog (Steph, Serena and Elizabeth), I was far too tired to concentrate adequately, much less teach the younger ones to do map reading.

After the initial lesson, the seniors gave us a map of the school and an instruction sheet and we had to read the map to find the clues planted at the sites. It was late at night and the school was very dark, plus we were only allowed to bring one torchlight around: worse still, some of the clues were planted on the 4th level! Eeeek. It was pitch dark and the seniors disabled the mains so we couldn’t switch on the lights.

We went to the 3rd level and met Grace’s group (Grace Kelly) in the open space outside the audi when 3 seniors, Tracy, Stacey and Caroline I think, arrived at the scene and proceeded to ask questions. Grace’s group got off because they got such an easy question while we got stuck “What is Guide Law No. 4?” and ended up being tied up to each other at the wrist, or rather I volunteered and got tied to Serena and Ee Leng.

On the 4th level outside the old P6 classrooms, we were gathered in the open space and I was looking around, the place was slightly lit up from a spotlight facing the ground level at the end of the wing and the quintessential ‘Exit’ sign. I looked towards the upper level of the Primary school hall (the area which connects to the 2005 secondary class wings) and to my horror (yes the same word again) I saw the doors swinging mysteriously. I quickly turned around and didn’t say a word, but my mind was racing trying to find a plausible reason which included telling myself to ignore it. However 10 seconds later Ee Leng said “why are those doors swinging?” and I totally lost it and started screaming. Cue everyone else screaming and everyone running down the stairs (about 2m away from where we were). It was so scary :(

After running around the lower levels some more, we gathered up the courage to go to the 4th level again and we found 2 seniors hiding behind the short wall in the primary wing, I think it was this time that Vicky got tied to Ee Leng. We walked towards the passageway where I saw the door moving I was just about to run ahead (or struggle ahead depending on how you see it) and kick the door as hard as I could when we all spotted 2 seniors, Caroline and Shamita hiding behind the wall. Grrrrrr.

Finally after the Orienteering and Supper, the committee had a short meeting about the next day’s murderer game and for some reason, Yolanda had decided to come to camp to spend a night. After everyone left leaving only me, Jamie and Yolanda, she kept on talking cryptically about some grand prank. I grabbed my things and lugged the lot upstairs to the classroom (P2.6, a class that I would not have stepped into in my wildest dreams) where we were sleeping and I went to wash up. For some reason, I couldn’t sleep AT ALL and I didn’t feel tired at all so I joined Yolanda, Jamie and Vanessa in the next classroom.

We played some games and uh, after the prank (I’m not sure how much I should say) I went to sleep, it was around 2AM. Jacinth woke up but we got her to shush up. It was so fun even though I didn’t really participate except to follow them all around.

Day 2
Stephanie woke me up at 6:50. I jumped right out of my sleeping bag and ran around trying to get ready and both of us ended up running down the stairs for devotions and exercise.

After breakfast we had a short rest period and I started to prepare for the craft session and did a small bit of a mosaic for an example, it was quite fun and mindless (:

The craft session went relatively well with me passing comments to every group on how the craft made me feel I was “in Kindergarten” oh well, it was fun playing with the glue (:

When everyone was done we all went to have out lunch which was Nasi Lemak. I think Stephanie threw away 80% of her food >.< I was last to finish again.

When I was finally done, Grace, Yihui, Jacqueline and Me went to the guide den to take out the materials for the night’s campfire and some guides pitched in to help carry the things and there was a dolly outside the guide den which we also used to transport things down to the quadrangle, things got done pretty fast. Then Yihui and I left the rest of the girls to their devices (including some lazy people who used EYE POWER to help us do work -.-) and loaded up a dolly with firewood, punk and sticks for the afternoon’s session out outdoor cooking. Pushing the dolly was a whole adventure in itself because the wheels were screwy and the dolly tended to steer itself towards the right more than anything else. Still it was fun (:

During the session I was going to do the turfing for my patrol but Elishea (also another alumni of the Outdoor Cooking Competition: 1st Company) decided to take over when she saw how small my hole was >.<

I went off to change into track pants so I could sit on the grass and to grab some insect repellent and by the time I came back, Elishea had already started up a nice fire and I went to gather suitable firewood and fanned the flames which come to think of it, is the only thing I’m actually good for, for outdoor cooking. The food came out quite alright, the bell chicken was delicious but the pizza was very bad >.< oh well. I had a stomach ache this morning, a very bad one at that. Stephanie said it was because of the outdoor cooking the previous day, and that it was probably the sweet potato I ate because I was the only one who was willing to eat it. Now that I think of it, I have a sneaky suspicion that the sweet potato wasn’t washed at all.

It was also around this time that my patrol began making geeky jokes, ‘PWNED!’, ‘ALL YOUR BASE ARE BELONG TO US’ (this is a geek cult flash, ask me if you want the link or something. It’s also used as a cheat for Warcraft III and Starcraft, and ‘THERE IS NO SPOON’, basically the cheats to blizzard games. The other groups must have thought we were über com geeks or something.

COH again and we all told the seniors that we were still hungry after outdoor cooking (this was at 7PM) because the food wasn’t sufficient, hahaha. The committee also stayed behind to discuss the murder case game with the seniors (in terms of our safety) and they just decided to patrol the area.

We had the campfire after COH which was pretty uneventful. My group did a silly skit while I’m sure the other groups didn’t understand and ended with Stephanie saying ‘ALL YOUR BASE ARE BELONG TO US!’ in a mechanical voice, looking back I’m wondering if the skit was done with the sole purpose of messing up the “guard’s” hair, which was my role, and being pushed around. We were supposed to be those red bedecked guards who stand guard outside Buckingham Palace and don’t move despite provocation -.-

Anyway the committee stayed behind to go put out the campfire so we missed the powerpoint :( how sad. Nevermind, I’ll find a way to get my hands on that powerpoint, I heard it was very funny. After we put out the fire, Jaishree and I fetched a pail of water from the toilet and we both went off to our places, waiting for the girls to come. The linkway was quite dark in certain areas so I hid in the darker parts waiting for the girls to come.

Overall it was very fun acting as the butler and I didn’t have to act that much since the butler’s personality and actions were very much similar to my own when I’m in one of my moods. Equipped with an acid tongue I also managed to get the girls to laugh when they asked stupid questions like:

Girl: How big was the house?
Me: I’m a butler, not a property agent.

Girl: You look pretty young to be 61
Me: Well you look pretty young to be a police cadet.

It was fun being mean and not offending anyone at the same time (: another thing I also found amusing was when one group’s girls said I spoke very ‘cheem English’, hahahaha. They should go meet Suat then they’ll know what ‘cheem English’ really is. In the end someone had to translate for the poor girl because I wasn’t going to give my act for her. Yet another group was commenting on the accent I used during the game, they said it sounded mildly British which I found to be very funny because I really didn’t bother with what kind of accent I used at all. Oh well.

In the end, none of the groups solved the case; the answer was really hard and not obvious at all, but one group was a little close to at least 1 part of the answer.

After that we had nice sandwiches for supper which the seniors prepared for us because we said that we were hungry (as in the whole Guides contingent was served) and I went off to shower in super cold water before going to bed.

Day 3
Woke up late today, 30 mins late in fact and ended up dashing down the stairs to the Home Ec. Rooms because I had cook duty. I didn’t even stop to brush my teeth :( and waited for Stephanie to come down (she also overslept) before I went to wash up and keep my sleeping bag.

I went down after I was done to check if they needed my help and found out that Adeline’s patrol and mine had already finished up so I returned upstairs to keep all my things (or rather stuff them) into my bag.

We had breakfast and then had the usual camp duties and cleaned up the areas that we used and I brought my bag down from upstairs. After cleaning some of us were free so we gathered around and talking and I took some pictures and a video of Steph fighting with Maxine, hehehe. When everyone was done cleaning we played games which were quite fun and totally retarded. Oh well (:

Around 11:30AM the tents were dry enough for us to take them down and pack them up. I was taking the pegs from the campsite to the holding area at the bomboo courtyard for Steph, Vicky and Elishea to clean and then turned my attention to other matters when to my dismay Steph appeared to tell me that there were 15 Small (S) pegs, 14 Medium (M) pegs and 12 Large (L) pegs and to make things worse my group was cleaning up the Guide HQ tent and pegs :(

We told the seniors and after everyone spread out and searched the miniscule field like how the Police search when looking for a piece of evidence; that is everyone standing in a line and walking forwards, combing the area. The peg was nowhere to be seen :( In the end Shasmita did something which I shall not state here because some scary HQ people might read this or something >.< still all the pegs are accounted for and everything was folded up nicely.

Mrs Lim ordered Macdonald’s lunch for us all (it fitted into the camp budget, didn’t want to ask questions) and Stephanie, Ianthe and I stayed in school till 2:15PM just talking and eating (:

Speaking of PWNAGE, as I mentioned earlier, Chessa got PWNED by a car :( it was on the first day of camp and she was running late and saw her bus coming so she tried to run across the road, however she didn’t see a car coming from behind the bus (overtaking), the same car which ran her over, for lack of a less crude term.

We were all so worried :( I’ve never seen Jacqueline cry before. Poor girl. But we heard that Chessa was alright, that is still alive, not in ICU and still retaining her memory, however she did forget what happened from the screech of the car tires to the time she woke up in NUH (she was conscious at the time and was able to give the driver some sort of number). So after I returned home I quickly took a bathe and left the house for Buona Vista MRT.

I was on my way to Buona Vista MRT when I heard an American accented voice go: “F**k you!” and I looked up and saw this American teen sticking his head out of a speeding white cab that was driving past the bus stop. He was laughing. I had half a mind to scream after him “Yeah I know you want to!” but instead opted to chuckle to myself. The other lady at the bus stop didn’t seem too amused though.

At the Hospital Jacqueline and me found Chessa in the Children’s Ward of all places and we were soon joined by Vanessa, Jaishree, Yihui (Huang), Grace and Jacinth, the birthday girl (: She’s back on solids and she might be discharged tomorrow from Hospital, hope she gets well soon and um, gets her specs fixed up (they got spoiled in the accident).

Still, it’s kind of scary and weird when you realise what happened and how many more ways things could have gone much more wrong. I guess it’s God’s Will.

I shall be calm, I shall tolerate everything thrown at me by incompentant people today since I was already angry yesterday over two incompetant people and their actions. Morons shall not faze me for today (:

Guide Camp tomorrow. Must not get angry at totally altered schedule and activites. Must not be pissed that all hard work went down the the drain. Must be calm.

Bloody Guide Camp >.<

Yay! Let's play mess up Melodie's day! It's the newest, most enjoyable and least exclusive game in town! Great for christmas gifts! Mess up her day before it's too late!

Ah, since I don't feel like doing an actual post, I shall post the results of some of the quizzes I stole from Ianthe's blog (:

You Should Learn French

C'est super! You appreciate the finer things in life... wine, art, cheese, love affairs. You are definitely a Parisian at heart. You just need your tongue to catch up...

What Language Should You Learn?

Your Birth Month is March

You love life and exude an outgoing, cheerful vibe. Blessed with a great sense of humor, you can laugh at adversity. Your soul reflects: Respect, desire, and generosity Your gemstone: Aquamarine Your flower: Daffodil Your colors: White and light blue

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

Hahahahaha. This one is SO wrong >.<

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 9/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

And that's after I just randomly clicked one of the answers :D Too bad GCSE E Math isn't like that >.<

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?

Your IQ Is 115

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

I'm not sure what was so dirty about it and I'm a little confused by Q15 because well, Just because you're not in the Axis Powers doesn't mean you're in the Allies right? Was China even in the Allies?

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama. Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time... But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you. You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

You Are Scary

You even scare scary people sometimes!

How Scary Are You?

Hahahaha, I wish. Oh well I'm getting tired. I'm going to eat a PETEY BANANA then i'm off to sleep (:

Hahahaha oh man. I feel so lame. I went to neopets because I was looking for the html code for strikeout when I got the urge to sign up for an account... and I did! Now I'm the proud owner of a green Lupe named indices because that was the topic of the math assignment I just finished >.<

I had the weirdest dream last night: That guide camp was about to start in 1 hour and I hadn't packed for it yet so I was running around my house trying to get EVERYTHING for it (that reminds me, 8. Pack for guide camp: oh and i've lost my list of things to bring >.<) and after a while I woke up. Then I went back to sleep again and had almost the same dream >.<

Aiyo.

Anyway last night as I was talking to Victor he mentioned the saying "Courage is not the absence of fear but the overcoming of one's fear in the face of adversity", well something to that effect anwyay, he ended up forgetting the last bit of the saying.

So I thought for a while what my fear was and realised that it was failing, failing at something that I had tried hard for and I decided that I'll take Chinese seriously now and get a C6. This way when I get older, I'll have no regrets that I didn't try at least and if I do suceed, I can wonderfull give myself the illusion that I CAN get into Oxford and Cambridge (you need at least a C in a language other than English to get into ANY course).

Maybe it's time for me to stop being such a pessimist in my academic studies and try hard for once (:

Things to do:
1. Pg 48 and 53 of E Math TYS
2. Practice algebra by myself
3. Finish all 3 proses AND send them off to Miss Bong ASAP (already 4 days late!)
4. Buy christmas gifts(half the list done!)
5. Write letter to Lauren
6. Finish letters for 35 and 40
7. Read War & Peace

7 things to do for the next 7 days. Must start studying! Gahhhh. I hope my mind is up to it, for the past few weeks i've been lazing about doing hardly any mentally stimulating work (apart from trying to decipher Mein Kampf) and I bet my IQ is now 80 or something >.<

I don't want to do lit :(

In case you were wondering what happened to yesterday's post: I deleted it. Sedition remember? Even if it was in support of Singapore's decision.

I don't what the world is coming to, it's seeming more and more like armegeddon is coming the next second. All this bullshit and nonsense being slung around by the USA, Australia and Japan.

Of the 3 the one I respect the least is USA, but the Japan is the one I hold in the most contempt for their constant refusal to stop those Yazukuni Shrine visits and their foreign minister's comments that China and Korea were being silly in insisting that the shrine visits be stopped, not to mention those anti-china mangas that are flooding the Japanese market now with deflamatory, absurd and plain rude allergations on China.

How can anyone condone a genocide? Mind you, this wasn't the first time a genocide was denied to much in an effort to conceal it. It actually worked for Turkey in 1915 and they covered it up so well that most people, adults even cannot claim to have heard of the genocide. But Japan is trying to do it now, and to add insult to injury, their prime minister goes to a shrine where 14 Class A war criminals's remains are housed. They claim that we have no business in what they do, but was Prince Harry not condemned world wide for being insensitve by wearing a Nazi soldier's uniform at a costume party? At least he had the mind to apologize! I'm not being racist here and saying all Japanese are bad people, one of my good friends is half-japanese in descent, just that something has to be done. What example are they leaders of that country setting for the impressionable youth? Germany has done good for all the evil that happened in WWII, but what about Japan?

Don't let history repeat itself. Ignorance is no excuse for the needless loss of lives.

Singapore itself too shouldn't take the passive stand. Who cares about the majapahits and sirivijaya or whatever bull it was that we learned about sec 1? Students should be learning of things like the genocides, and even the sec 3 textbook has one tiny paragraph on the rape of nanking and a 2 page 'special' on Nazi treatment of jews. Apathy alone kills. You have you make them CARE, give them something to fight for in their lives, not go about dithering that they didn't get A1s for their Add. Math or whatever.

"The only thing nessesary for evil to flourish is for good men to do nothing."--Edmund Burke

Don't let apathy become the way of life for singaporeans. Money, possessions mean nothing. When we die, we can't bring everything with us beyond the grave. Make a difference in the lives of others, do something right for a change besides placidly laughing as the USA attempts to find some lamebrained excuse to invade Iran.

One website worth a look is this though it might leave an unsightly taste in your mouth.