Since coming back to Singapore, I've had far far better days.
My Aunt Janet died 1 day before I was due to fly back. I was notified by a text from my mother while I was packing. I looked at the text, sat down and then got up, sat down again. I was too stunned. I ignored the text and half chatted to Zoe/packed. My mother called me. The past two days since I've arrived back in Singapore were spent at a void deck in Buangkok at a funeral. I was not too close to Aunty Janet, I saw her like maybe 2-3 times a year, but of all the Aunts on my mother's side, she was one of the closest. She was always happy and smiling, in her happy-go-lucky way. The last time I saw her was in December, ironically at a death anniversary of a relative. I was curious and wanted to watch what was happening, and she told me to go closer and watch. Well, I can now honestly say I've witnessed a full Chinese funeral.
I saw my Guo Mah wail, at the death of one of her youngest children of 8. My cousins crying, my aunts and uncles crying. One of the worst was seeing my Uncle, her husband cry. I wasn't even around at the hospital when she died, my mother said that was worst. I am all worn out now.
That, amongst other things, makes me wish I had never left London.
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Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Last night in Passfield Hall
Last night was the last night I spent in Passfield Hall. Hardeep said this to me last night as we hung about, but I felt really tired to think much about it, but this was the first thought on my mind as I woke up to an eyeful of luggage and boxes. It is the last day here.
I think of how much I longed to get out of this place, especially in the Lent Term of school (Jan - March), but now realise I have slipped into indifference. I love how looking for people is always easy, but at the same time being in a dorm fills you with a sense of loneliness especially when your friends are busy/out travelling. Last night I ate dinner alone (very rare for me) and I brought a book as a companion. As I chewed the unappetising fish and stared at the blank wall ahead, I thought about random scattered thoughts while trying to push off that old lonely fear again. But then after dinner, I got up and went into the TV room where lots of recognisable (and some friendly) faces were watching England vs Algeria. I sat down to watch too.
After the match, I was left frustrated with England more than anything else. The lonely feeling was gone. I hung about and talked to people. I went back to my room for a bit, showered, then came back down to talk to more people. I discovered yet another person was leaving LSE for good. I discovered you need to eat 6 eggs a week to get all your Vitamin B12, and I discovered that Guinness is the alcohol with the least calories at 170. I thought about how I ought to being more responsible and cook healthy food next year.
I thought about next year.
I think of how much I longed to get out of this place, especially in the Lent Term of school (Jan - March), but now realise I have slipped into indifference. I love how looking for people is always easy, but at the same time being in a dorm fills you with a sense of loneliness especially when your friends are busy/out travelling. Last night I ate dinner alone (very rare for me) and I brought a book as a companion. As I chewed the unappetising fish and stared at the blank wall ahead, I thought about random scattered thoughts while trying to push off that old lonely fear again. But then after dinner, I got up and went into the TV room where lots of recognisable (and some friendly) faces were watching England vs Algeria. I sat down to watch too.
After the match, I was left frustrated with England more than anything else. The lonely feeling was gone. I hung about and talked to people. I went back to my room for a bit, showered, then came back down to talk to more people. I discovered yet another person was leaving LSE for good. I discovered you need to eat 6 eggs a week to get all your Vitamin B12, and I discovered that Guinness is the alcohol with the least calories at 170. I thought about how I ought to being more responsible and cook healthy food next year.
I thought about next year.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Less than 48 hours till I fly back
I just checked into seat 75H for my flight back on Saturday - this very clearly means that I only have 48 hours left here. How agonisingly the academic year started, sped up, slowed down to a sloth's pace and then started to jog along from Easter onwards. Now Christoph has left and I am packing to leave myself, back to Singapore for 3 months+
These next 48 hours will be a busy one, with many squeezed in social engagements (4 - Stephanie and Jiahui, Kaijun, Passfield Govt/IR people, Jon Kong), as if the past few days itself have not been jampacked enough (Amsterdam, lunch with Christoph, All My Sons playing at the Apollo Theatre with Dexter and Jason). Hopefully things will all turn out well.
Brighton was very windy, I got lots of headaches. Still the food was good (had moules and beef carpaccio!), so lots of om nom nom, plus the company/time with Christoph could not be beaten (:
Honey bunny, I'll miss you.
These next 48 hours will be a busy one, with many squeezed in social engagements (4 - Stephanie and Jiahui, Kaijun, Passfield Govt/IR people, Jon Kong), as if the past few days itself have not been jampacked enough (Amsterdam, lunch with Christoph, All My Sons playing at the Apollo Theatre with Dexter and Jason). Hopefully things will all turn out well.
Brighton was very windy, I got lots of headaches. Still the food was good (had moules and beef carpaccio!), so lots of om nom nom, plus the company/time with Christoph could not be beaten (:
Honey bunny, I'll miss you.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
The Oak
So, I'm in Brighton now staying at Court Craven. The first thing I notice before we walk through the door is a "No Vacancy" sign. Then the caretaker says no one else is staying in the place except us.
Therefore, if I suddenly disappear from this place, it is because we have been killed by a serial killer ala Season 4 Episode 4 of Criminal Minds.
Also, I watched the North Korea versus Brazil match - it was excellent and great fun. I don't remember enjoying a match as much as this since I saw the Brazil versus Germany final match in 2002. North Korea scored too! I am very happy.
Therefore, if I suddenly disappear from this place, it is because we have been killed by a serial killer ala Season 4 Episode 4 of Criminal Minds.
Also, I watched the North Korea versus Brazil match - it was excellent and great fun. I don't remember enjoying a match as much as this since I saw the Brazil versus Germany final match in 2002. North Korea scored too! I am very happy.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Fucking Hammersmith Line
Coming back after a good trip to Amsterdam, a ride on the London Undergound back has been enough to completely ruin all the fun I had there. I have had it with this Goddamned fucking overcrowded hell hole full of the world's most self absorbed people. There is no way in hell I will remain here for long after university, I am definitely not going to lay down any roots here.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Urgh I need to pack
I went to the doctor's again today (and as an aside, NHS is not too bad at this - plus it's all free!) and I was given two types of anti-biotics: NO ALCOHOL FOR ONE WEEK!
I leave for Amsterdam tonight. This is really crappy news, although not too bad since I'm not some hardass drinker. I guess it's time to research whether the antibiotics react with other things.
On another note, on the way back I walked past the UCL Cancer Institute, and on the steps there were 2 people smoking.
I leave for Amsterdam tonight. This is really crappy news, although not too bad since I'm not some hardass drinker. I guess it's time to research whether the antibiotics react with other things.
On another note, on the way back I walked past the UCL Cancer Institute, and on the steps there were 2 people smoking.
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
I feel tired
So the exams are over, meaning I have lots of free time. However the end of exams also means all the shit that I have been putting off doing suddenly needs! to! be! done! I am glad however that today I managed to get quite a few errands done.
Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday (1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th)
...were melded into one big exhausted ball of exhaustion thanks to 3 exams, one after the other. It was spent half studying and talking over things with Chris Rowley, J. Hahn, Aneesh, Anu and Hwa Young and half being exhausted (on Tuesday after what must have been 3 panic attacks in one day, I just hit the limit of where I was too tired to panic any longer).
I met random friendly faces and chatted a bit here and there - found out amusingly that all my classmates think I'm a really calm and carefree person - mainly because I just plain gave up on GV100. I had lots of tea, lots of painkillers and sleeping pills at night. My eyes were dark circles.
At random intervals during my last exam, I'd daydream mid sentence and mid thought about how I was going to be free in just a few hours, and all the lovely free things I'd do. Phwosh. And then I was free, chatted a bit to Ashraf who was in the same examination room as me, oddly enough, and then set off to meet Anu, Zoe, Aneesh and Hwa for a pint and a pir at Ye Olde Cheshire Cheese. We wandered back to LSE after and I had a G&T in the Three Tuns. I walked back, packed and showered to meet Christoph for dinner at his place. He ended up bring me to (I think) Le Pont de la Tour for dinner at Butler's Wharf, and then we walked back to his place.
Saturday and Sunday
...was spent sleeping a lot. Thank goodness. I also cooked stir fry here and there.
Monday
...I went to meet Jia at South Kensington to finally see the Grace Kelly exhibit, which was a bit smaller than expected. She followed me to Piccadilly Circus because I wanted to return some stuff to Uniqlo, and we ended up shopping there and at H&M up the street. We also turned a corner around Glasshouse Street and found a random enclave of Japanese foods supermarket and resturants. We also found a European Bookstore which sold only non-English European languages books. We ended up buying sushi and edamame and ate it leaning outside the Aquascutum store on Regent's Street. We walked back towards Goodge Steet and went to Tesco to buy some juice. As she wanted to rush off, she left early. A minute later I rounded the corner and she was there, so we ended up talking again.
I then headed back to my dorm and washed up, getting ready to leave for Aldgate East for Deborah's party. Christoph picked me up at the tube station and we walked to her place. Didn't really know many people, and was tired so I sat in a corner and talked to Christoph and Nikolai while drinking. Started blowing up balloons. After feeling a bit tipsy, I decided to hide in the kitchen and randomly had a conversation with another girl called Natalia who was about to leave. I put a corkscrew in the fridge because I thought it was funny, and decided to wash the dishes and broke one when it slipped from my soapy hands >:( I also saw real Tom and Jerry like mousetraps. Was in mild awe. Then I took a spatula and tapped the trap and it snapped shut, just like in the cartoons!
I decided I was probably being a bit too destructive, so I went back to the main living area and talked to Lawrence for like 20 minutes on National Service and Education - which kind of astounds me because all I wanted was to sleep. Then I realised Christoph was being tipsy, which meant I needed to sober up. I can't remember what I did to sober up. Midnight came, and so did his Birthday Wishes, and then we left with another girl who happened to stay in Elephant and Castle.
Elephant and Castle is one of the dodgiest neighbourhoods in London. Already around Liverpool Street which was dodgy enough, at a lit bustop along the main road and waiting for 100, a man dressed in a yellow track suit and bottoms came by asking us repeatedly for cigarettes. Dodgy enough, but he went away after a short while. When we arrived back at Elephant and Castle, we walked her back. Just as we were about to turn into her estate along Browning Street, some black guy (God I feel so racist for saying this, but it was true) turned around a corner and started following us, shouting "Hey are all of you together?" repeatedly. We ignored him and took the long way around in to her estate. This was around 1-2am in the morning, in the London ghetto and in a dark and quiet-er residential area with no one around.
I was totally freaked out. On the way out, I kept looking behind because there were lots of small unlit alleyways on the side where someone could hide. It didn't help that the area was not lit properly as well. This was the first time I felt really unsafe in London, and I was quite shaken. We walked back towards Falmouth Road, and stopped for fried chicken on the way, om nom nom.
TuesdayAte at Dragon City along Walworth Road as a very late lunch and was completely stuffed. The dim sum and Chinese food there is seriously better than any joint in Chinatown and is very comparable to Singapore. Then walked with Christoph to Blackfriar's bridge, stopped along a coffee shop at the Oxo tower and had ice cream and a drink. We did half of the South Bank walk, and I took some pictures. Then, we walked across to Embankment, to a bar chain which I now forget for drinks and a burger with friends.
WednesdayToday I did a crapload of errands. Exchanged money for tomorrow's trip as a very bad rate, urgh, went to the real estate agent's to hand in money, had lunch with Ashraf at Assa, picked up some medicine from Boot's in Euston and went to buy a stamp for a long overdue card for my Dad.
I need to do the laundry.
Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday (1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th)
...were melded into one big exhausted ball of exhaustion thanks to 3 exams, one after the other. It was spent half studying and talking over things with Chris Rowley, J. Hahn, Aneesh, Anu and Hwa Young and half being exhausted (on Tuesday after what must have been 3 panic attacks in one day, I just hit the limit of where I was too tired to panic any longer).
I met random friendly faces and chatted a bit here and there - found out amusingly that all my classmates think I'm a really calm and carefree person - mainly because I just plain gave up on GV100. I had lots of tea, lots of painkillers and sleeping pills at night. My eyes were dark circles.
At random intervals during my last exam, I'd daydream mid sentence and mid thought about how I was going to be free in just a few hours, and all the lovely free things I'd do. Phwosh. And then I was free, chatted a bit to Ashraf who was in the same examination room as me, oddly enough, and then set off to meet Anu, Zoe, Aneesh and Hwa for a pint and a pir at Ye Olde Cheshire Cheese. We wandered back to LSE after and I had a G&T in the Three Tuns. I walked back, packed and showered to meet Christoph for dinner at his place. He ended up bring me to (I think) Le Pont de la Tour for dinner at Butler's Wharf, and then we walked back to his place.
Saturday and Sunday
...was spent sleeping a lot. Thank goodness. I also cooked stir fry here and there.
Monday
...I went to meet Jia at South Kensington to finally see the Grace Kelly exhibit, which was a bit smaller than expected. She followed me to Piccadilly Circus because I wanted to return some stuff to Uniqlo, and we ended up shopping there and at H&M up the street. We also turned a corner around Glasshouse Street and found a random enclave of Japanese foods supermarket and resturants. We also found a European Bookstore which sold only non-English European languages books. We ended up buying sushi and edamame and ate it leaning outside the Aquascutum store on Regent's Street. We walked back towards Goodge Steet and went to Tesco to buy some juice. As she wanted to rush off, she left early. A minute later I rounded the corner and she was there, so we ended up talking again.
I then headed back to my dorm and washed up, getting ready to leave for Aldgate East for Deborah's party. Christoph picked me up at the tube station and we walked to her place. Didn't really know many people, and was tired so I sat in a corner and talked to Christoph and Nikolai while drinking. Started blowing up balloons. After feeling a bit tipsy, I decided to hide in the kitchen and randomly had a conversation with another girl called Natalia who was about to leave. I put a corkscrew in the fridge because I thought it was funny, and decided to wash the dishes and broke one when it slipped from my soapy hands >:( I also saw real Tom and Jerry like mousetraps. Was in mild awe. Then I took a spatula and tapped the trap and it snapped shut, just like in the cartoons!
I decided I was probably being a bit too destructive, so I went back to the main living area and talked to Lawrence for like 20 minutes on National Service and Education - which kind of astounds me because all I wanted was to sleep. Then I realised Christoph was being tipsy, which meant I needed to sober up. I can't remember what I did to sober up. Midnight came, and so did his Birthday Wishes, and then we left with another girl who happened to stay in Elephant and Castle.
Elephant and Castle is one of the dodgiest neighbourhoods in London. Already around Liverpool Street which was dodgy enough, at a lit bustop along the main road and waiting for 100, a man dressed in a yellow track suit and bottoms came by asking us repeatedly for cigarettes. Dodgy enough, but he went away after a short while. When we arrived back at Elephant and Castle, we walked her back. Just as we were about to turn into her estate along Browning Street, some black guy (God I feel so racist for saying this, but it was true) turned around a corner and started following us, shouting "Hey are all of you together?" repeatedly. We ignored him and took the long way around in to her estate. This was around 1-2am in the morning, in the London ghetto and in a dark and quiet-er residential area with no one around.
I was totally freaked out. On the way out, I kept looking behind because there were lots of small unlit alleyways on the side where someone could hide. It didn't help that the area was not lit properly as well. This was the first time I felt really unsafe in London, and I was quite shaken. We walked back towards Falmouth Road, and stopped for fried chicken on the way, om nom nom.
TuesdayAte at Dragon City along Walworth Road as a very late lunch and was completely stuffed. The dim sum and Chinese food there is seriously better than any joint in Chinatown and is very comparable to Singapore. Then walked with Christoph to Blackfriar's bridge, stopped along a coffee shop at the Oxo tower and had ice cream and a drink. We did half of the South Bank walk, and I took some pictures. Then, we walked across to Embankment, to a bar chain which I now forget for drinks and a burger with friends.
WednesdayToday I did a crapload of errands. Exchanged money for tomorrow's trip as a very bad rate, urgh, went to the real estate agent's to hand in money, had lunch with Ashraf at Assa, picked up some medicine from Boot's in Euston and went to buy a stamp for a long overdue card for my Dad.
I need to do the laundry.
Monday, June 07, 2010
Hamsterdam
I really keep feeling like a hamster. Last night I was tired and could not sleep. Instead I lay in bed thinking about different tasks like "Call Housing Agent", "Return Library Books" and "Meet Jia at 2pm in South Kensington, and if I want Subway for lunch I need to leave at 1:20pm". I kept getting up just to scribble all of these thoughts down on a piece of paper in order to attempt to be free of them.
And in other new, thank goodness exams are over. Some went better than expected (GV100, EH101) and some went worse (GV101), but in the end they were all doable. Phew.
And in other new, thank goodness exams are over. Some went better than expected (GV100, EH101) and some went worse (GV101), but in the end they were all doable. Phew.
Tuesday, June 01, 2010
Oh gawd, EH101 tomorrow
I don't think I've ever been so pumped up with medication in my life, from extra-strong painkillers, sleeping pills, anti-anxiety medication to medication to calm my stomach.
I've also never been so strained before an exams in my life.
I've also never been so strained before an exams in my life.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Lunar Sea
Yet another week has passed and the exams have begun, and I am left to wonder how the hell I spent a week doing nothing really remarkable (that comes to mind instantly), more out of a vague idea that I'm letting my life slip by than any notions of ohmahgawd-I-need-more-time-to-study. I am so sick of this exams, I feel like slitting my throat. Morbid notions aside, I shall attempt a brief recall:-
Sunday
Had lunch with Dexter at gbk, a very nice fat juicy burger with pesto. Went to Joy and bought a very cute birthday card and went shopping in New Look for an hour. Went over and had dinner with Christoph. (Damn was this just last week? It feels months ago).
Monday & Tuesday
I cannot recall anything at all. I went to the gym on either one of these days, and had a splitting headahe that incapacitated me the rest of the day (I think Tuesday). Probably finished reading one of my books this day, and watched Gundam Seed. I also briefly recall going to Tesco in E&C to cook Chicken Breasts stuffed with Pesto and wandering into the 99p Shop to buy chocolate. Had another headache afterwards, that made me feel really sick. Watched an episode of Criminal Minds I think, Probably nothing exciting happened, since I barely remember the existence of these two days and really had to struggle to remember anything at all.
Wednesday
Did work until about 2pm, then I headed to Oxford Circus for shopping. Gawd, Oxford Circus was insanely crowded. Bought shit, especially two pairs of sandals for New Look which I was particularly excited about (hah my intellect is so regressing this round of exams). Took the 453, which was excruciatingly long and crowded from Oxford Circus all the way to Rodney Place and dumped my stuff before heading to Lidl with Christoph. Watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail.
Thursday
Did not do anything distinctive, except counsel 3 people which really frustrated me. Was also hungry from a really bad Passfield dinner, so I got Zoe to buy me a kebab since she was out attending a concert. Kebab was good kebab.
Friday
Went to the NHS, missed my appointment, waited 30 minutes more while fearing being late for my meeting with Jia. The lady doctor (who was kind of cool), refused meanwhile, to prescribe me anything for anxiety and I had to beg for sleeping pills and stronger painkillers for my everyday-hours-long-headaches.
Ran to the tube, took it to South Kensington to find that Jia was not there (was 30 minutes late anyway) and that she was sick with food poisoning. I went in to V&A and attempted to see the exhibit, but no! All tickets sold out for today. This was the last straw after feeling really stressed out and frustrated from yesterday, a wasted trip, no exhibit, no friend, and a 30 minute tube ride - so I started freaking out in front of some random Islamic pottery from the 17th century. It was not pretty.
I took the tube to Goodge and had tea with Jia + a trip to Oxfam after. I calmed down, and walked back eating apricots. I got whistled at by some construction workers who also wanted some apricots, thinking they were crisps. I laughed and heard a confused "but they're orange aye?" trailing as I walked off.
Then I came back to Passfield, talking to Nadia about EH101 during which I started panicking again with her telling me to slow down because I was talking too fast for her to understand. I came back to my room, and freaked out again, this time to Zoe. I calmed down after freaking out twice in one day and managed to do my work.
Around the evening I went to Euston to get my prescription filled. They were out of my painkillers, so they gave me a receipt to collect it when they came in. I obtained a less strong dosage to tide me over temporarily.
I did work, met Christoph, then spent 1 hour debating some silly EH101 macroeconomic problem (nice Gold Standard rules of the game) with him. Gave up, then emailed the two lecturers in charge. Took my sleeping pills.
Oh, I also did my laundry somehow amidst all of this mess.
Saturday
Had dinner with Zoe at ICCO, went to Tesco Metro and bought Raspberry and Apple Juice for 90p.
Sunday
Went to Euston to buy Subway for Michele and me, and encountered some odd protest by teenagers in Hoodies about being discriminated against. Wandered into Boots, bought a nail buffer and wandered into WHS Smith and bought a token trashy female magazine and a Sudoku book.
Buffed my fingernails and toenails, painted them, watched two episodes of criminal minds and completed two sudoku puzzles. Spent like 20 minutes scanning in Nadia's EH101 notes, about 2 hours max editing GV101 work, read a commentary on Plato, and spent the day zoned out and on some stoned plane of reality.
Shouted out the window at 2am at drunken louts screaming outside the window. I was about to sleep and reading the trashy magazine, when I heard them. They woke up Michele which really pissed me off, so I shouted "shut up assholes!" out the window. Then, I couldn't sleep for a bit because I needed to get rid of the adrenaline rush. I need to verbally abuse people more often.
Monday
Had lunch with Stephanie and went to Tesco to buy food. Did more readings on Plato, browsed through Nadia's EH101 stuff on ICT and Latin America. Handwashed red dress which turned the water completely red (thank goodness I handwashed it), and did one sudoku puzzle so far.
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Okay, I hope this headache goes away soon, I want to finish Latin America, hopefully before dinner.
Sunday
Had lunch with Dexter at gbk, a very nice fat juicy burger with pesto. Went to Joy and bought a very cute birthday card and went shopping in New Look for an hour. Went over and had dinner with Christoph. (Damn was this just last week? It feels months ago).
Monday & Tuesday
I cannot recall anything at all. I went to the gym on either one of these days, and had a splitting headahe that incapacitated me the rest of the day (I think Tuesday). Probably finished reading one of my books this day, and watched Gundam Seed. I also briefly recall going to Tesco in E&C to cook Chicken Breasts stuffed with Pesto and wandering into the 99p Shop to buy chocolate. Had another headache afterwards, that made me feel really sick. Watched an episode of Criminal Minds I think, Probably nothing exciting happened, since I barely remember the existence of these two days and really had to struggle to remember anything at all.
Wednesday
Did work until about 2pm, then I headed to Oxford Circus for shopping. Gawd, Oxford Circus was insanely crowded. Bought shit, especially two pairs of sandals for New Look which I was particularly excited about (hah my intellect is so regressing this round of exams). Took the 453, which was excruciatingly long and crowded from Oxford Circus all the way to Rodney Place and dumped my stuff before heading to Lidl with Christoph. Watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail.
Thursday
Did not do anything distinctive, except counsel 3 people which really frustrated me. Was also hungry from a really bad Passfield dinner, so I got Zoe to buy me a kebab since she was out attending a concert. Kebab was good kebab.
Friday
Went to the NHS, missed my appointment, waited 30 minutes more while fearing being late for my meeting with Jia. The lady doctor (who was kind of cool), refused meanwhile, to prescribe me anything for anxiety and I had to beg for sleeping pills and stronger painkillers for my everyday-hours-long-headaches.
Ran to the tube, took it to South Kensington to find that Jia was not there (was 30 minutes late anyway) and that she was sick with food poisoning. I went in to V&A and attempted to see the exhibit, but no! All tickets sold out for today. This was the last straw after feeling really stressed out and frustrated from yesterday, a wasted trip, no exhibit, no friend, and a 30 minute tube ride - so I started freaking out in front of some random Islamic pottery from the 17th century. It was not pretty.
I took the tube to Goodge and had tea with Jia + a trip to Oxfam after. I calmed down, and walked back eating apricots. I got whistled at by some construction workers who also wanted some apricots, thinking they were crisps. I laughed and heard a confused "but they're orange aye?" trailing as I walked off.
Then I came back to Passfield, talking to Nadia about EH101 during which I started panicking again with her telling me to slow down because I was talking too fast for her to understand. I came back to my room, and freaked out again, this time to Zoe. I calmed down after freaking out twice in one day and managed to do my work.
Around the evening I went to Euston to get my prescription filled. They were out of my painkillers, so they gave me a receipt to collect it when they came in. I obtained a less strong dosage to tide me over temporarily.
I did work, met Christoph, then spent 1 hour debating some silly EH101 macroeconomic problem (nice Gold Standard rules of the game) with him. Gave up, then emailed the two lecturers in charge. Took my sleeping pills.
Oh, I also did my laundry somehow amidst all of this mess.
Saturday
Had dinner with Zoe at ICCO, went to Tesco Metro and bought Raspberry and Apple Juice for 90p.
Sunday
Went to Euston to buy Subway for Michele and me, and encountered some odd protest by teenagers in Hoodies about being discriminated against. Wandered into Boots, bought a nail buffer and wandered into WHS Smith and bought a token trashy female magazine and a Sudoku book.
Buffed my fingernails and toenails, painted them, watched two episodes of criminal minds and completed two sudoku puzzles. Spent like 20 minutes scanning in Nadia's EH101 notes, about 2 hours max editing GV101 work, read a commentary on Plato, and spent the day zoned out and on some stoned plane of reality.
Shouted out the window at 2am at drunken louts screaming outside the window. I was about to sleep and reading the trashy magazine, when I heard them. They woke up Michele which really pissed me off, so I shouted "shut up assholes!" out the window. Then, I couldn't sleep for a bit because I needed to get rid of the adrenaline rush. I need to verbally abuse people more often.
Monday
Had lunch with Stephanie and went to Tesco to buy food. Did more readings on Plato, browsed through Nadia's EH101 stuff on ICT and Latin America. Handwashed red dress which turned the water completely red (thank goodness I handwashed it), and did one sudoku puzzle so far.
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Okay, I hope this headache goes away soon, I want to finish Latin America, hopefully before dinner.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Listen to that song again
Today for the first time in a few months I woke up depressed. I woke up thinking 1) The night is over?/I need to face the day again? and 2) I am alone. I lay in bed, unable to pull myself out while thinking that the last time this happened, I had just been freshly dumped and saw no hope in each day-to-day. This time, the thought of studying for exams (for I need to cover all of my GV101 stuff today) was enough to depress me completely. I am actually that depressed, never mind that I have come a long way from then (metaphorically).
I cannot conceive of an exam that renders me as depressed as a break up. All I can say is, fingers crossed and 5 more damn days to go. I don't think I have been so exhausted mentally and emotionally before.
I cannot conceive of an exam that renders me as depressed as a break up. All I can say is, fingers crossed and 5 more damn days to go. I don't think I have been so exhausted mentally and emotionally before.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
I had ICCO with Zoe for dinner today
Not having to wake up to the spectre of looming Exams will be a relief. Friday, come quickly and painlessly as possible please. You have sucked enough of my life force and blood as it is.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Crappy day, go away
All I ate today has been an entire pack of dried apricots and a smoked salmon sandwich. Oh and a last remnant Ryvita crispbread. I hate today, lousy lousy when nothing went right, alongside the existing frustrating and unhappiness of yesterday.
On another note, most admirably, I found out today that the Oxfam near Goodge Tube/Charlotte Street sells unsold clothes from Urban Outfitters. I think this is very admirable, since I recall reading a few months ago how chain stores like H&M (which are lower down in the overall fashion pecking order than UO) trash their clothes rather than donate them to the needy or charity shops. I say, bravo UO - I am very impressed by their decision to donate clothes rather than destroy them out of some absurd imagined elitist notions.
On another note, most admirably, I found out today that the Oxfam near Goodge Tube/Charlotte Street sells unsold clothes from Urban Outfitters. I think this is very admirable, since I recall reading a few months ago how chain stores like H&M (which are lower down in the overall fashion pecking order than UO) trash their clothes rather than donate them to the needy or charity shops. I say, bravo UO - I am very impressed by their decision to donate clothes rather than destroy them out of some absurd imagined elitist notions.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Come on, get it over with
I am stressed out, with vague alternating bouts of stress caused depression. I think the only thing that keeps me sane and not regressing into a decomposing unwashed completely mental pile of shit is Christoph.
God, I cannot emphasise how much I loathe exams.
God, I cannot emphasise how much I loathe exams.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I am in love
with Twining's Green Tea with Pineapple and Grapefruit. Someone remind to buy like 3 boxes of this stuff before I head back to Singapore. Mmmmm.
Gawd I am so sick of exams and I have a massive urge to go shopping. I feel totally vapid and bimbotic now. Damn you end of Bretton Woods, damn you.
Gawd I am so sick of exams and I have a massive urge to go shopping. I feel totally vapid and bimbotic now. Damn you end of Bretton Woods, damn you.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Sunny London
I have a massive urge to just put on a bikini and shorts and lie on the grass (with a towel of course) in Tavistock Square. The sun is really out in full force now.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
The Great Gatsby
After years of saying I'd read it, I finally have and I am impressed - far more than I ever thought I would be.
I have finished editing my notes on Voting Rights, and am now left to do work on Economic History for the Apartheid.
I think I will go to Brunswick with Zoe to get a bite at the Saturday Food Market there. I am in the mood for some chocolate-y baked goods, om nom nom (and possibly a nice Argentina steak sandwich :x).
Today is the first day that I am wearing shorts. Last night I finally changed from my fluffy winter duvet into the thinner Passfield given one.
I have finished editing my notes on Voting Rights, and am now left to do work on Economic History for the Apartheid.
I think I will go to Brunswick with Zoe to get a bite at the Saturday Food Market there. I am in the mood for some chocolate-y baked goods, om nom nom (and possibly a nice Argentina steak sandwich :x).
Today is the first day that I am wearing shorts. Last night I finally changed from my fluffy winter duvet into the thinner Passfield given one.
Friday, May 21, 2010
I am unable to sleep again
I have been cursed with sleeplessness again. I cannot wait for my damn melatonin to finally arrive.
While I was lying in bed and thinking, amidst the muck of things I had to do and worrying about completely unnecessary things, it occurred to me that since bringing Cheam to Portobello Market last week, this week had passed by extremely fast.
I thus started to probe and attempt to remember what happened:-
Saturday
Portobello Market with Cheam, met Denise and Mel there - ate shit loads of yummy food and had a lovely nutella and strawberry crepe. Met Cheam again for dinner and shared a whole chicken at Nando's. Went back to his place, watched Cool Runnings, fiddled about with Torchlight and watch some Family Guy.
Sunday
Mainly spent feeling stressed and revising. Insomnia started.
Monday
Exam day, ate lunch with Christoph and went back to revise Federalism. Got burnt out.
Tuesday
Went to doctor's for a check up, walked down to the National Gallery and bought cheap books from a book store that had a sex shop downstairs (wondered why there were so many males interested in Anne Bronte and Charles Dickens). Went to see Delaroche's Painting History exhibit and then met Christoph for tea/dinner.
Wednesday
Met Dexter at Waitrose to pass him a book I bought for him, bought salad things. Cooked chicken curry for dinner, watched Ali G in Da House. I cannot remember what I did from waking up to the late afternoon.
Thursday
Follow-up doctor's check up, bought KFC for lunch and went over some economic history stuff with Nadia. Came back to room half dead and started working on Voting Rights, watched the latest criminal minds episode which involved social networking sites.
Friday
Spent the day at Christoph's studying, went out to Tesco and bought food for lunch and dinner (pizza and stir fried noodles respectively). Came back, finished Post WW2 Economic Growth, and arranged to meet Dexter for lunch on Sunday. Awake and unable to sleep currently.
Saturday (hopefully)
Finish Apartheid for Economic History, go to the gym and have a nice dinner with Chen, Ching and the rest.
While I was lying in bed and thinking, amidst the muck of things I had to do and worrying about completely unnecessary things, it occurred to me that since bringing Cheam to Portobello Market last week, this week had passed by extremely fast.
I thus started to probe and attempt to remember what happened:-
Saturday
Portobello Market with Cheam, met Denise and Mel there - ate shit loads of yummy food and had a lovely nutella and strawberry crepe. Met Cheam again for dinner and shared a whole chicken at Nando's. Went back to his place, watched Cool Runnings, fiddled about with Torchlight and watch some Family Guy.
Sunday
Mainly spent feeling stressed and revising. Insomnia started.
Monday
Exam day, ate lunch with Christoph and went back to revise Federalism. Got burnt out.
Tuesday
Went to doctor's for a check up, walked down to the National Gallery and bought cheap books from a book store that had a sex shop downstairs (wondered why there were so many males interested in Anne Bronte and Charles Dickens). Went to see Delaroche's Painting History exhibit and then met Christoph for tea/dinner.
Wednesday
Met Dexter at Waitrose to pass him a book I bought for him, bought salad things. Cooked chicken curry for dinner, watched Ali G in Da House. I cannot remember what I did from waking up to the late afternoon.
Thursday
Follow-up doctor's check up, bought KFC for lunch and went over some economic history stuff with Nadia. Came back to room half dead and started working on Voting Rights, watched the latest criminal minds episode which involved social networking sites.
Friday
Spent the day at Christoph's studying, went out to Tesco and bought food for lunch and dinner (pizza and stir fried noodles respectively). Came back, finished Post WW2 Economic Growth, and arranged to meet Dexter for lunch on Sunday. Awake and unable to sleep currently.
Saturday (hopefully)
Finish Apartheid for Economic History, go to the gym and have a nice dinner with Chen, Ching and the rest.
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