I've always taken a fancy to the idea of Carpe Diem, with my own twist to it. Seize the day, tell them you love them before it's too late. If tomorrow never comes, will she know how much I've loved her?

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I think I am going to die young. I have a 1% chance of having a brain tumor, a 1% chance of having a stomach ulcer, 10% chance of having heliobacter pyori, a 1% of dying from some really big asthma attack, a 0.1% chance of having a piano fall on me and a 100% chance of dying one day. I don't want to leave with regrets, the idea that I could have done more but didn't >.<

I wish my health was less fucked up.

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Yesterday I left school after Biology practical for an appointment at the Gastro's (Clinic L, Block 3, Level One; outpatient specialist) at SGH. He showed me the lab reports, and I have been checked clean for everything, technically there is nothing wrong with me - but if so why am I so sickly?

He said it was emotional imbalance, the failure of the emotions to right itself after blows. Depression. Bipolar. Tension headaches. Stomach ulcer like symptoms - they were all related. The problem is, how does one really get rid of something like that? It's not a problem you can throw tons of amoxicillin/dhasedyl/ventolin/travocort/anarex at. I can well say that I am fine now, no longer depressed, but there is always the issue of school stressing the hell out of me and that adds to it too >.<>.<

Just thinking about it all kinda depresses me actually. So I shall stop thinking about my health.

From;

Now.