On the Eve of My Mind's Rape/Utter Humiliation:

I am sanguine.
I have nothing to lose.
It is a growing experience.
It is a learning experience.
It is an exercise in mental gymnastics.

I am intelligent.
I don't know if I want it that badly.
It's never been a definite end all dream.
I still don't know what I really want, after all.
So I need to remember: it is not a do or die matter.

I might end up there anyway.
I still want to go post-graduated studies.
Loads of people who didn't get in for undergrad got in for postgrad.
Some of the interviewing panel didn't even come from O. University themselves.
And most importantly I need to remember this: I as a person am not defined by where I go

but what I make of life.