I don't feel like anything now.

I am a bitch and deserve to die.

Everyone will be happier with me dead anyway. Har de har har.

No more person to depress others. No walking reminder of a failure. No irritating female that can't get over someone everyone declares is a bastard and took her for a ride. No one who throws tantrums when she doesn't get her way.

I want to sleep and never wake up, but that is probably too good an end for all of this.